It's been so long. [Tag: Hannah]

[Katherine Sallow]

Katherine was struggling to sleep, her head was still spinning but there was something she hadn't done yet since being back in a room. Knocking on the wall but this time it was harder to do the usual routine. Katherine sighed and sat up, groaning from the pain and then started to crawl over to the wall. Luckily Silvio was asleep and wouldn't witness the model doing the most degrading thing ever. After a couple of minutes, Katherine made it over to the wall. She put her hands up against the wall and after 5 attempts got up and sat against the cold wall. "Ok...Just the usual routine. Yeah. Not like your fi...fiance will be there. Nope not all. Why would he?" Katherine banged on the wall "Hello? Is it me your looking for?" Katherine giggled at her own joke.

[Hannah van de Berg]

Hannah had been laying on her bed staring at the ceiling. She was not sure how she had handled the situation with noah. Then again one of his close friends had died so recently. Hannah did not think she would be over that any time soon either if she was in noah's shoes.
She looked over to the bed of her friend. She was not sure if the people she had met here saw her as a friend too but she liked to think they were, or could be. People like Noah, jessica, Geoff and ethan were still on her list of people she cared a lot about even if they had just met in this place. And then there were the few people she actually knew before like russel dorian and-

"Hello? Is it me your looking for?"

"katherine..!?" hannah couldnt stop herself as she heard the muffled voice from the other side. She quickly checked if she had not woken noah up. Luckily that was not the case. She got out of her bed and got closer to the wall almost tearing up just hearing the voice of her dear friend. " Katherine it's me.." she said as she sat against the wall feeling just a tiny bit closer to the raven haired girl. " It's hannah"

[Katherine Sallow]

"Katherine it's me.. It's Hannah" Katherine gasped. Her friend, her sister. She bit her lip "Oh my god Hannah you're still alive?! I haven't seen or heard you since the wedding. Wait is good old Geoff with you? Tell me has nerdy man been a faithful husband or do I need to beat his ass...actually no I know he's faithful cause it's Geoff! Oh my god Hannah are you going to crryyyyyy?" Katherine said slurring her words a little. She was wiping away her tears too "Cause guess what I'm crying too! Not only from hearing your beautiful and stunning voice but so much shit has happened to me since the wedding like well..."

Katherine stopped to think, well attempt to. "My head hurts cause I drank a whole thing of whiskey and we know I am a fucking light weight but it was for another. Drum roll please." Katherine did a little sloppy drum roll on the wall "It was another death event. I swear our captor is obsessed with little old me cause I think..." She giggled "Hah me thinking. What a surprise. No I think i've been in about...4 or more events. I don't know you loose count after a while.Especially if you are me who lost two friends to a FUCKING FREEZER, confessed your feelings to your now fiance. OH YEAH HANNAH IM GOING TO GET MARRIED." Katherine quickly covered her mouth after all Silvio was sleeping. "shhhh I need to be quiet because Silvio is my roommate and he's sleeping."

[Hannah van de Berg]

hannah was beyond happy to hear the voice of her best friend as she smiled a bit hearing her storm of questions raining down on her. The gloomy atmosphere around her was lifted for a little bit just by hearing the models voice. She was alright. Oh thank god. She shook her head with a small chuckle. How katherine managed to still have that much energy even while being trapped in this place was another mystery for hannah to solve.

"Oh my god Hannah you're still alive?!"
"yes gladly I am not hurt, what about yourself?" she mumbled softly as she heard katherine talk on.
"I haven't seen or heard you since the wedding. Wait is good old Geoff with you? Tell me has nerdy man been a faithful husband or do I need to beat his ass...actually no I know he's faithful cause it's Geoff!
Hannah was glad for the wall between them as she was sure her face was a bright red color. Okay she knew katherine to say things a bit more carefully. that was blunt.
" I know.. It has been too long" she said softly a she touched her cheeks as they were warm from blushing.
Hannah did not know how to feel about the situation with Geoff. Her days with him in the bridal suite had most likely been the safest she felt while being here. She could not lie. She missed it. but then again. maybe she just missed being seen by someone. Maybe she missed not feeling alone. And well Geoff made her feel that way. Not alone, and as if what she had to say actually mattered. But there was still the question of why, did the matchmaker actually have a lucky shot by matching them up or would Geoff just play the part to not die and was she seeing ghosts. But was that not what always happened to her? She tried to see the best in the situation. To take the less painful route. Like when her father had tried to contact her. Oh how she wanted to believe that he did it because he had missed her, but it was clear to see to anyone that he just needed money to spend on his debts caused by his addiction.

"Oh my god Hannah are you going to crryyyyyy?" She snapped out of her thoughts as she noticed that she was indeed crying. however what worried her was the way katherine slurred her words. something was odd. "Cause guess what I'm crying too! Not only from hearing your beautiful and stunning voice but so much shit has happened to me since the wedding like well..."
Hannah listened to her friend and a frown grew on her face. " Katherine.." She started softly as she wanted to talk to her about everything that happened. She had talked to dorian and he had told her the details. She just wanted to be there for katherine, to lift her spirits. But katherine continued her rambling.

My head hurts cause I drank a whole thing of whiskey and we know I am a fucking light weight but it was for another. Drum roll please." Hannah blinked in confusion. Drunk. Katherine was drunk. " Wait katherine why did you-" "It was another death event. I swear our captor is obsessed with little old me cause I think..." "Oh my goodness" Hannah said as she felt herself getting more tense and worried. Another event. Couldn't the poor girl be spared? She had been in how many events now? "I think i've been in about...4 or more events. I don't know you loose count after a while." Hannah's eyes grew wide. " what four?!" She asked forgetting to keep her voice down for a moment. lucky for her noah had been exhausted and did not hear them. She tried to keep up with katherine who was now yelling that she was getting married. " married..?! to who.. kath.. Please I love you and I want to help you but please one thing at a time" She said softly

[Katherine Sallow]

"married..?! to who.. kath.. Please I love you and I want to help you but please one thing at a time" Katherine stopped. When she heard what Hannah had called her and her mood instantly changed. The tears falling and she gasped trying to stop her from crying but it failed. "You know that's what Dorian calls me and Hannah...he's the man I am marrying but the thing is not too long ago I confessed to him and at the time he just thought I was trying to replace Cassim with him but I'm not and then in the event...he said he loved me but I know he was only putting it on for show like you know what Geoff did with you with that kiss...I...I don't know what to do." She continued to cry. "I said to him if I had to marry him to keep him safe I would and now it is happening but...but...I know he doesn't love me...right? I...I don't know anymore." Katherine tightened her fists and started banging them against the side of her head which didn't help the headache she had but she was scared. "I could've died in that event! But here I am drunk..."Katherine bit her lip. "Hannah...I think I'm going mad...not too long ago when I was talking to Dorian...I saw my horrible aunt...She caused me so grief when I was child..." Katherine covered her mouth. She said too much already and went silent.

[Hannah van de Berg]

Hannah heard her friend gasp and wondered what she had said to make her snap out of her drunken rambling. Had she been too harsh? Hannah herself rarely drunk alcohol but she knew the effects it could have on people. Her mother used to drink a lot when she was still together with her father. She knew that drunk people could kind of feel certain things more intensely. well, emotionally at least. Pain was another story. When she heard katherine cry her first instinct was that she indeed had been too harsh. Before she could say she was sorry she heard katherine's weak voice from the other side of the wall.

"You know that's what Dorian calls me and Hannah...he's the man I am marrying but the thing is not too long ago I confessed to him and at the time he just thought I was trying to replace Cassim with him but I'm not and then in the event...he said he loved me but I know he was only putting it on for show like you know what Geoff did with you with that kiss...I...I don't know what to do."

That was a lot to take in on more then one level. First of she was going to get married to dorian. When hannah thought about it it did not seem too strange. Dorian was gentle and kind, something katherine desperatly needed. Katherine was a bit more reckless and fun, but ambitious and passionate none the less and that was something that perhaps Dorian could warm up to to become a bit less stiff himself. The fact he had called her kath instead of miss sallow or miss katherine was already a huge deal for the man. How hannah had not seen that katherine had actual feelings for dorian? Perhaps because they had not spoken for a while. That had to be it. Just like hannah katherine had fallen for someone here in the asylum. She understood her confused feelings.
To hear katherine confirm what she had been thinking about geoff made hannah breathe in a bit more heavily. she shook her head. Focus.

"I said to him if I had to marry him to keep him safe I would and now it is happening but...but...I know he doesn't love me...right? I...I don't know anymore."Hannah frowned a little. " Katherine sweetheart.." she said softly. " I have been talking to Dorian for a bit.. And I came to understand where he comes from a little bit better" She said softly. "Katherine, I am certain that Dorian cares a lot about you. The fact he does not call you 'miss katherine' and actually gave you a nickname is huge for him, considering he comes from a place where everything is business and formal. 'Miss sallow' is business. Kath is personal. And with his background he was not really allowed to.. get personal." She said softly as she was still super bitter thinking about Dorians parents. God how she wished she could just be in a room with dorian and katherine to tell the both of them how valuable they truly were. They both seemed to forget it too often. And in both cases some stupid wall was blocking her from actually seeing face to face with them.

" I can't speak for him katherine, but by the things you told me.. and the things he told me about you. He cares about you and wants you to be safe and get out of this place. I think that his head is not thinking about a relationship right now. But if you truly love him and he cares this deeply about you then who knows what will happen when you two can actually breathe again without fearing for your or each others life every two weeks."
Hannah did see a chance for a relation to blossom, and if not a romantic one then a deep friendship. that was also worth something.

Hannah took another deep breath. She hoped she was not too much or was too sappy for her drunk friend. She hoped katherine could actually think about what she said and not wake up with a black out the next morning. whatever. When needed Hannah would repeat herself until the young woman felt allright again.

"Hannah...I think I'm going mad...not too long ago when I was talking to Dorian...I saw my horrible aunt...She caused me so grief when I was child..." Hannah frowned a little. So she was not the only one getting confronted with shadows of her past.
"Why is that?" she asked her softly. She wanted katherine to talk about it. She knew that katherine's mind could become kind of toxic and wanted nothing more then to tell her the truth so she had another voice to listen to instead of the one she was hearing in her head.

[Katherine Sallow]

As Katherine listened to Hannah go on all she could do was just listen but was suddenly snapped out of her state when she heard Hannah's question and all she could do was sigh "Honestly I would need more alcohol just to talk about this woman. I can feel myself sober up." She said laughing but then sighed "I have three aunts but one aunt I don't talk to anymore because there was an incident back when I was 6 during the summer." Katherine sighed. Well there was no going back now "My aunt Abigail was a religious woman and normally my other two aunts would look after me and my brothers but they couldn't so my papa decided we would stay with her because he had to work away...Um...At first everything was fine you know. I would play along with her religious shit and then one day, papa had to leave for 2 weeks and that's when my grief truly began.While my brothers did everyday kid stuff she started to mentally abuse me, saying how God judged everything I did and how it was my fault our mother left and that my father was disappointed in me and the only I could save my soul from Hell was to stay with her and learn the ways of God...It was horrible. My brothers would laugh at me everyday, mock me even have turns teasing me. My aunt encouraged them..." Katherine covered her face, muffling her cries.

"2 weeks. I was truly alone and even after I left she sent me letters, horrible letters and now she's probably doing it with my cousin, Dorothy. When I was talking to Dorian she appeared and I went into a state of shock, I felt like I was 6 again. I was scared..." she hugged herself. Katherine wanted to go home. She wanted to see her papa again, her aunts and Dorothy. "I want to go home." Katherine said quietly crying again.

[Hannah van de Berg]

Hannah listened as katherine started to tell her about her aunt. She had known katherine for some time now but they never really talked about what had happened before they became the people they were now. Yes hannah knew about katherines father and how close the two of them were but that was it. This was all new information for her. The lady katherine was talking about was awful and hannah couldnt help but find her stomach turn and her nails dig in the palms of her hands as she felt angry. How dare she. How dare this woman be that cruel to her friend and while she was a child no less. Ofcourse that had severely impacted katherine.

"Katherine I do not think you are going insane" she said her voice sounding more firm then she meant to. "The way your aunt acts towards you and your cousin is unforgivable. Shes corrupted your young mind and tried to dig into your sense of selfworth.." she said as she frowned opening her hands to not hurt the palms of her hands. "I know how hard it is to change your mindset after you have heard something for so long but your aunt is a liar katherine. You are such a strong young woman. I know nobody who has worked so hard to get themselves to a better place like you have. You are gorgeous and not only from the outside. Even now that you are in such a good place financially you never let it change your personality. You are caring and passionate. You have this.. fire.. and your aunt just tried to put it out because she doesn't.."
Hannah really wished for the wall to be gone so she could hug her friend.
Katherines aunt was a bully, nothing more. If anything she was a disgrace for a religion that should be about loving and respecting eachother in the way you wanted to be respected and loved. Katherines aunt just wanted power. She just wanted to be sure katherine would do what she wanted so she wouldn't feel as powerless as she most likely did. It was sad but sickening.

"I do not think you're crazy" hannah repeated. "I think that your aunt has made you afraid of getting rejected and belittled for things that are normal or out of your control. Eventhough you want to you can not control who you fall in love with.. and there is no shame in that.. its human. And with all the trauma that has been pushed upon you.. they took the form of the person who used to push you down when you were younger." She said softly. ".. im just.. so sorry.. you deserved so much better. Just know shes wrong about you. She has always been wrong about you. You are not what she sees you as.."

[Katherine Sallow]

Katherine heard what Hannah had to say and she continued to cry, trying to be quiet for the sake of Silvio "I swear you should be a therapist, not an art teacher." Katherine said wiping away her tears. "Fuck me...Why did I drink all of that fucking whiskey? I hate whiskey..." she rubbed her head, feeling the headache becoming more painful. "Anyways enough about me, anything happen to you? Have you been in anymore events have you?" Katherine really hoped Hannah hadn't been events that she hadn't been in. Katherine placed her forehead against the cold wall, waiting for Hannah's reply.

[Hannah van de Berg]

Hannah smiled weakly as she geard katherine tell her she should be a therapist instead of an art teacher. In her mind it sounded like a drama or a comedy movie. 'The therapist who helps others but runs away from her own problems' was that a cliche? Who did therapists go to when they needed mental help anyways. Other therapists?

She hoped katherine felt better. She was still crying but she seemed to be calming down. At her comment about wiskey the brunette nodded. "Ive never really liked alcohol to begin with " she admitted.
In true katherine fashion, she tried to change the subject. Hannah shook her head slowly. "No I havent been in any events lately.. there was an event before you and dorian were mentally tortured in the freezer thing.." Hannah remembered dorian telling her he was scared katherine blamed herself for. "Both of you are not to blame for that by the way..it was out of your control" she said hopefully to let katherine know that it was not her fault. "It was the card game event" she said softly. "After that i was sort of left alone.. i wonder if me and geoff being fake married has anything to do with that.." she stared at her ring again

[Katherine Sallow]

No I haven't been in any events lately.. there was an event before you and Dorian were mentally tortured in the freezer thing.." Katherine quickly moved away from the wall a little after hearing that."Both of you are not to blame for that by the way..it was out of your control" Katherine scoffed quietly. Everyone had say that to her and probably to Dorian too but Katherine would forever hold some guilt over Cassim and Della.

"It was the card game event. After that i was sort of left alone.. i wonder if me and Geoff being fake married has anything to do with that.." Katherine thought for a while. Did marriage here equal safety? That somewhat made sense to her. "So would you say after the card event you and Geoff weren't roomed together? If so then that is very odd like you two are married. Unless it's like some very fucked up test to see if either one of you will go behind the other's back and cheat." Katherine brought her knees to her chest and hugged them. The more she learnt about things, the more confused was. Nothing was making sense.

[Hannah van de Berg]

Katherine did not really react and hannah decided to not go into that topic now. Katherine might praise her therapeutic skills but that might be biting of more then she could chew.

When katherine asked about her marriage with geoff Hannah sighed. "No we have not been roomed after that.. its so strange apparently it means enough to keep us out of events but.. not enough to keep us in the same room." Hannah said softly. " but i suppose thats for the better.." she mumbled. "It must be really tiring to keep up an act for so long"
Hannah looked at the ground. "I suppose this way we get some space to breathe.." the brunette shrugged. " but like i said.. i have been talking to people mostly.. trying to come up with theories and keeping myself busy since ... this whole thing is confronting.. but other then that.. i have been fine so.. there is not much to say about me.. im here with noah by the way. He.. is not too great mentally. One of his friends passed away recently " she said softly

[Katherine Sallow]

"It must be really tiring to keep up an act for so long" Katherine was slightly confused by how Hannah had phrased that. "You're making it sound like it's only Geoff is keeping up the act of being in love with you...Hannah have you fallen in love with Geoff?" But Hannah continued on wards with what she was doing to keep herself busy then there was a name she hadn't heard in so long "I'm here with Noah by the way. He.. is not too great mentally. One of his friends passed away recently " Her smile quickly turned back into frown. "Oh god poor Noah. It's horrible. Well depending on what mood he is in when he wakes up tell him that I send my condolences although if he would even want to hear those words are another story." So much death was happening. Katherine could only imagine how the families and the loved one of those who died would feel when they hear the news. It was horrendous. None of them deserved this. None of them.

[Hannah van de Berg]

Hannah heard katherines response and frowned slightly. "Well.. yes because thats what's happening.. don't you think?" She asked katherine. "Geoff and I had never met before this whole thing and.. well.." she was caught off guard when katherine asked her if she was in love with geoff. Yes she had talked about this with jes but still. "It doesn't matter if I do or not.. he's in love with someone else. He's terrified of our captor and rightfully so.. I don't know his true feelings.. but it would not be surprising if he was putting on a show" she said as she hugged her knees. "So.. i meant it when i said i know how you feel" she said with a weak chuckle trying to lighten the mood.

When katherine talked about noah she nodded even if the raven haired model could not see it. "I will tell him.. Jessica and I set up a small memorial in the room i am in before the roomswitch. To inform people and make sure they won't be forgotten whatever happens." She mumbled.

[Katherine Sallow]

"So.. i meant it when i said i know how you feel" Katherine bit her lip. If there wasn't a wall here right now she would've hugged Hannah and not let go. "I will tell him.. Jessica and I set up a small memorial in the room i am in before the roomswitch. To inform people and make sure they won't be forgotten whatever happens." Katherine smiled and was glad to hear that Jess was still doing alright. "That is sweetest thing ever and I'm glad Jessica is doing ok too. Oh I know her because she won a modelling shoot with me and she brought in these fantastic cosplays like that girl is so talented! It really upset me when I saw her here like...it's worrying how many people I know are here.." And she went again bringing the mood down even further. If drunk Katherine was still around there would've hopefully been more laughs then holding back tears.