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Post by Katherine Sallow on Aug 31, 2020 19:22:37 GMT
Katherine bit her lip. "Uh yeah I'm fine...something just fell over that's all." Katherine didn't like to lie but in that moment she didn't want to be embarrassed. "I see, well I mean.. I'm glad they have found each other" Katherine looked back at Silvio who was sleeping in the armchair and smiled "As am I. I hope those two make it out alive. I'm rooting for them."
Katherine then went to back to Jasper and breathed out "I'm glad he wasn't on the memorial. There's still hope but Jasper he has curly, about shoulder length sandy blonde hair, green eyes uhhh he has that jock type body." Katherine said smiling a little. "Honestly one of the sweetest boys ever and I'm so glad to call him a friend." Katherine hugged her knees. She hoped with every fiber of her being that Jasper was ok. If he did die...Katherine didn't even want to think about what she would do. "Who knows he maybe at the wedding...I just hope he is ok." She sighed.
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Post by Hannah van de Berg on Aug 31, 2020 20:07:15 GMT
"Uh yeah I'm fine...something just fell over that's all." Hannah frowned ever so slightly. Was it because of the alcohol? Perhaps she should stay seated.. " Oh my.. Please be careful" She said as she was still concerned of course. The brunette nodded slowly as katherine told her about rooting for Silvio and Claudette. Oh the dramatic irony. Claudette going to mrs baker to find her a match. She does not find one and gets the woman fired. Then when she is kidnapped in some kind of revenge plot she finds her match. If anything this would be some kind of romance novel or movie. Not that she was romanticizing what was going on in any way, but it did sound like something that would happen in a work of fiction. Then again this whole situation kind of was. Who was she to talk? To fall in love with the man that was forced to shoot you. That was also something on its own. "me too" she added none the less. She hoped they could actually start something outside this hellhole
As she heard about katherine's friend she made sure to make mental notes. " I'll keep an eye out for him okay?" she said hoping it would ease her worries ever so slightly. " And who knows, perhaps you are right" she said as she smiled weakly as she truly hoped she was. She sighed as well as she did not really know how to continue their talk she did want to end their talk on some good things but did not really know what she could tell katherine. " I wish there was a hole in the wall here as well. " Hannah blurred out. " I mean. there is a hole in the wall between this room and the other side.. i think the room is empty though right now.. But .. If there was a hole I could give you Dorians watch.. I found it in one of the rooms and promised to return it when I saw him again. But youre going to see him way sooner ofcourse.." she thought out loud.
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Post by Katherine Sallow on Sept 3, 2020 23:30:12 GMT
"I'll keep an eye out for him okay?And who knows, perhaps you are right" Katherine could only give small chuckle "Thank you Hannah." They were met with silence and Katherine could only think about everyone who she hoped were still alive but now her mind was stuck on Jasper. She had been thrown into one event after another,seeing people who weren't actually there but had only just remembered that poor Jasper was still here. This place had really gotten to her and Katherine didn't like it one bit.
" I wish there was a hole in the wall here as well. " Katherine quickly snapped out of her thoughts to look at the wall with a confused look only to laugh from the random statement. "Why is that Hannah?" If there was a hole I could give you Dorians watch.. I found it in one of the rooms and promised to return it when I saw him again. But you're going to see him way sooner of course.." Katherine thought about it, she was lucky the first time around in creating a hole. "Well I did actually create a hole between me and another guy called Ethan because he had Cassim's scarf that I plan on giving to Dorian but I don't know if I will be lucky a second time lucky though." Katherine said holding the scissors. "It might be best you hold onto the watch for now, Hannah." Katherine said smiling.
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Post by Hannah van de Berg on Sept 3, 2020 23:38:15 GMT
Hannah shook her head not minding it at all. " youre welcome" she was already trying to keep track of all the people she met. Another name in the chaos that were the brunettes thoughts was nothing. Either way it would keep her train of thought going. That way she could actually wonder about things and not be confronted with her own thoughts.
She heard katherine chuckle. "Oh you met ethan as well? He's such a sweet boy. I hope he's allright.. " she said softly. "And the room you were in.. it was not by any chance a pale red room?" She asked. "Because otherwise the hole in the wall might be your handy work" she teased a little. She slowly nodded. "I suppose. But that might be a while " she sighed. "So either way.. are you.. scared? For the wedding I mean.."
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Post by Katherine Sallow on Sept 4, 2020 0:04:08 GMT
"Oh you met Ethan as well? He's such a sweet boy. I hope he's alright.. " Katherine smiled, part of her wasn't surprised that Hannah had already met Ethan "He really is. Despite not knowing me at all, he still listened to me and the problems I had at the time. I hope he is doing better than us." "And the room you were in.. it was not by any chance a pale red room?Because otherwise the hole in the wall might be your handy work" Katherine chuckled but shook her head "No the room I was in, it's walls were bare so sadly that hole was not my doing but good to know I'm not the only crazy person to damage walls." Katherine said laughing before stopping herself by covering her mouth so she wouldn't disturb Silvio.
"So either way.. are you.. scared? For the wedding I mean.." Katherine slowly moved her hand away from her mouth , thinking carefully about the question. Of course she was scared "I'm use to modelling wedding dresses, heck my first ever gig was for a wedding dress collection..." She sighed. Why was this such a hard question to answer and why couldn't she give a straight answer? "Yes I am scared after all I've seen what a wedding here is like, so the fear has been bumped to 10 already. I know what happens if everything isn't quote on quote perfect." Katherine brought her fingers to her mouth and start biting on her nails out of pure nerves. "I'm also scared because...well i'm marrying Dorian. A man who I never thought I become close to I guess in my lifetime. I mean I'm 22 and yet knowing this wedding is happening I feel as though I'm nothing more than a child...Things were already awkward between me and Dorian and now...." Katherine stopped herself, took a deep breath and sighed "and now...I don't think I will be able to look at him in the eye without feeling embarrassed. I mean what happens if we are roomed straight after the marriage? I...I'm probably overthinking all of this but I guess I haven't had time for this marriage thing to settle in my head you know?"
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Post by Hannah van de Berg on Sept 4, 2020 23:39:39 GMT
Hannah smiled weakly hearing katherine talk about ethan. That sounded about right. He had also been quick to offer his help to her even though they had just met. Hannah nodded. " yes I hope he is allright. I heard about what happened during the event he was in.. with Ethan Sawyer and two other people Jessica called Evan and David." She said as she had to dig in her memory to remember the names. " It's a miracle I can remember all those names.." she mumbled softly. It was good to hear katherine laugh again and her joke was actually kind of funny. " What kind of resistance would that be huh.. if we would just all start breaking down the walls. " she joked along
Then came the serious topic. The marriage. " I did not mean that.. I think.. The dress change might be the least scary.. If you don't take into account that someone else changed your clothes.." She said softly. " and honestly katherine you could marry in sweatpants and still look the part." She said as her friend was absolutely stunning. When katherines honest feelings surfaced hannah nodded slowly as she could understand why she was scared. " I know.. those ankle things are scary indeed.. though I'm sure things will be okay. You witnessed how clumsy I was.. you survived that marriage, I think being on the other side wouldn't be much different. " she said softly.
Hearing she was worrying about dorian and how different they were hannah thought about it as well. " well you are still young yes, but you are by no means a child. If anything youre a strong young woman who is still figuring things out. I think.. I think that you shouldn't put too much pressure on it. If anything, it might help you stay more safe because you have been married. And when we get out of this place who knows. Who even knows if these marriages are legal? And if they are would that be the end of the world?" She tried to calm katherine that even if she was in love with dorian they were not tied to eachother just by what happened here. They could "divorce" and start things in a healthy way. Even Re-marry if things went well. But that was something only time could tell.
"It's not at all strange that youre nervous or don't know what to do. If It's the same as with me and geoff.. well. My advice is to take some comfort in the fact the both of you are in the same boat together and in the same storm as everyone here. Both of you will be put on the spot and both of you will most likely be nervous or feel the same kind of tension. I know it's easier said then done but letting it be and talking when you ARE roomed together might help a lot" She said. " even if.. .. Well Im a bit hypocrite i suppose. " She added. " I haven't exactly been talking to Geoff about how I feel."
She sighed. Katherine had been honest to her. She might as well be honest too. " Katherine .. Is it weird or .. creepy that I actually .. you know.. Sort of feel .. safe with Geoff? As if this matchmaker.. or fate or whatever.. has not done too bad of a job..?" She asked softly. It felt wrong to say this out loud. Not because she was indeed starting to fall for Geoff but because she had basically admitted that the matchmaker had done a good job matching her with geoff.
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Post by Katherine Sallow on Sept 5, 2020 0:49:14 GMT
Katherine listened and tried to keep a note on the new names who knows she could be roomed with them next. She wondered how Jess was doing, the only time she had seen the girl was from the first ever event but it brought her comfort that Jess was still alive.
I know.. those ankle things are scary indeed.. though I'm sure things will be okay. You witnessed how clumsy I was.. you survived that marriage, I think being on the other side wouldn't be much different." Katherine couldn't help but chuckle" I mean I wasn't graceful either, I tired to help you and I fell flat on my face after being zapped" but even with Hannah's comforting words about the wedding, she was still scared but there was no point in her repeating her feelings again. " I haven't exactly been talking to Geoff about how I feel." Katherine pulled a confused look "what do you mean by that Hannah?" She was now even more interested in what Hannah had to say now.
"Katherine .. Is it weird or .. creepy that I actually .. you know.. Sort of feel .. safe with Geoff? As if this matchmaker.. or fate or whatever.. has not done too bad of a job..?" Katherine was a little shocked at what Hannah said but now it was her turn to be the help. Katherine thought about her answer as she didn't want to say anything wrong" well... I don't find it weird especially if you take into consideration you two have been glued at the hip, figuratively since the beginning of this mess. You two know what the other is like and have established that bond and know you are safe with the other." Katherine said kind of surprising herself she was able to give such an answer. " and I won't lie, I don't think the matchmaker, who or whatever wanted this to happen did a bad job. You two are compatible which is always key to a good relationship if it be friendship or marriage you know? Plus he was respecting you at that ceremony too. He's a good man and definitely a keeper as a friend and if you like him then he's an absolute keeper as a boyfriend/husband."
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Post by Hannah van de Berg on Sept 6, 2020 14:24:52 GMT
"I mean I wasn't graceful either, I tired to help you and I fell flat on my face after being zapped" Hannah Smiled weakly. She had been too scared of hitting the ground herself to really see hoe katherine was able to fall at the time but she remembered that nobody at the ceremony went "unzapped". She tried to sort of ease katherines feelings but knew that she truly could not take all the worries away. " Either way.. you will be a bit more prepared knowing how it goes.. that might be an adventage, as long as you play the part in front of the camera, like she wants, she won't hurt you.." or atleast if the ceremony's would be the same.
hannah held her breath a bit waiting for katherine's response. Did she say it wrong? Was it stupid? or weird? or creepy? or childish? or dumb? or- " well... I don't find it weird especially if you take into consideration you two have been glued at the hip, figuratively since the beginning of this mess. You two know what the other is like and have established that bond and know you are safe with the other." Hannah could feel a ' however' coming as she hugged her knees a bit tighter. and I won't lie, I don't think the matchmaker, who or whatever wanted this to happen did a bad job. You two are compatible which is always key to a good relationship if it be friendship or marriage you know? Plus he was respecting you at that ceremony too. He's a good man and definitely a keeper as a friend and if you like him then he's an absolute keeper as a boyfriend/husband." Hannah relaxed a little hearing katherines reply. So it was not that weird. Hannah agreed that this could not be an entirely healthy way to start either but.. It was strange since she still felt something. Oh god was she truely losing it? Was this how this mary person was manipulated? Hannah held her head. " I just don't .. I don't know what to do with these feelings katherine.." She admitted. " What if Im just super desperate or.. Uhgh.." She hid her face in her hands. " its so stupid.. Like what am I doing, what am I thinking, first of all I shouldn't be dropping this on you the way I am doing. Especially since you already have so much on your mind. Second of all it should not even matter because .. Well He's not in love with me, but someone else. And I know this is not highschool and we are both adults but. I dont want to make a fool of myself, and--" She noticed she was rambling about her feelings.
" Im sorry " She said
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Post by Katherine Sallow on Sept 6, 2020 17:49:23 GMT
" I just don't .. I don't know what to do with these feelings Katherine..What if Im just super desperate or.. Uhgh.." Katherine smiled and shook her head. She knew exactly how Hannah was feeling. " its so stupid.. Like what am I doing, what am I thinking, first of all I shouldn't be dropping this on you the way I am doing. Especially since you already have so much on your mind. Second of all it should not even matter because .. Well He's not in love with me, but someone else. And I know this is not highschool and we are both adults but. I dont want to make a fool of myself, and-- Im sorry" Katherine nodded her head "Hannah you shouldn't be sorry. I want to help you and I'm glad you've used me as an outlet to how you're feeling. Listen, I don't think it's stupid because well it's how I was...or still am with Dorian."
She sighed, she really didn't know what to say other than for Hannah to listen to the advice she had given to Katherine. "I mean you sound so sure of yourself that Geoff doesn't like you back but how do you know? For all you know he might actually like you a lot too but doesn't really know how to put his feelings into words. Not saying that he isn't capable of confessing because let's be real that man is pretty amazing." Katherine said giggling a little. Part of her wished that if she wasn't roomed with Dorian next that she was roomed with Geoff just so she could get answers from him as well as talk about everything that had happened since they last saw each other. "Hannah. Give me at least 3 reasons why you like Geoff. Don't ask any questions just give me 3 reasons."
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Post by Hannah van de Berg on Sept 8, 2020 1:57:56 GMT
Hannah listened to her friend on the other side of the door and let out a small chuckle. "We really are two birds of a feather huh.. same situation and all" she said softly. She liked to believe that this was normal. That she just like katherine and dorian could build something healthy later once they were out of this hellhole. But a part of her was absolutely terrified. What if she became like the woman who had visited noah? What if she was slowly giving in to what mrs baker wanted and she was falling in love with someone who was just trying to keep the both of them alive? Hannah clenched the fabric of the sweater like vest she had found in one of the drawers close to her. No.. she had to stay sane. She had to get out of this place with those she held dear. That was what any sane person would want. That was what sge wanted.. right? Was it..?
For months now she had been having trouble sleeping. Just worrying that she could be waking up in another event and die. And when she died. Who would mourn her? People moved on fast in this place. They had to. And back home? Sumo was the sweetest dog ever. He could stay at her neighbours.. she also was not the only art teacher around. She could be easily replaced. As if she never even truly existed.. but in this place, as selfish as it may be, she felt like there were people who would care. People who would be sad. She wished them best ofcourse but .. once they got out of this place.. would they still care? Or would they forget her after a week or 3.. Hannah felt horrible for thinking this way. How could she even? It made her sick.
Katherines words brought her back to earth. How could she be sure. "I talked to Jessica.. she knew him longer. And he like i suspected before was in love with someone else.. He met me months ago, once and we then spend a small amount of time together. I.." She looked at the camera for a moment. ".. I just.. can't imagine that I would change his mind." She said. "Especially after that stupid game we had to play.. that truth or dare thing. God.." she still felt so akward. Ofcourse he wouldn't have known how to react. She then heard katherines request. "Three reasons I like-.. okay"
She did not want to argue with katherine who seemed certain. "I like Geoff because I feel.. seen by him. He listened to what i think, cares about how i feel and does not think im .. strange " She started. " I like him because I can be myself around him. He does not roll his eyes at my attempts to be funny, he actually jokes along with me." The brunettes grip on the sweater loosened. "I suppose he makes me feel less alone, hes just.. so interesting and talented. He is intelligent and yet sweet and patient.." She sighed. "Why did you want to know..?"
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Post by Katherine Sallow on Sept 8, 2020 16:52:14 GMT
"I talked to Jessica.. she knew him longer. And he like i suspected before was in love with someone else.. He met me months ago, once and we then spend a small amount of time together. I.... I just.. can't imagine that I would change his mind.Especially after that stupid game we had to play.. that truth or dare thing. God.." Katherine listened not wanting to say anything till Hannah was done but was curious about the truth or dare game.
"Three reasons I like-.. okay" Katherine giggled "Yes three reasons.""I like Geoff because I feel.. seen by him. He listened to what i think, cares about how i feel and does not think im .. strange" There was reason number one and Katherine was already smiling. I like him because I can be myself around him. He does not roll his eyes at my attempts to be funny, he actually jokes along with me." Reason number 2 and Katherine slowly nodded. "I suppose he makes me feel less alone, hes just.. so interesting and talented. He is intelligent and yet sweet and patient.."Katherine couldn't help but silently fan girl a little at how cute all three reasons were "Why did you want to know..?" Katherine quickly calmed herself down and said "To see if your feelings for Geoff were genuine and I can tell they are." Katherine knew her friend was probably doubting her own feelings "All I say is this. As long you stay calm and keep your head held high no matter what happens. You will always have Geoff even if in the end you two are just friends. I think whenever you two are sharing a room and you can see each other face to face. You got to tell him how you feel because if you don't and something happens to either you or him...you don't want to feel any guilt for not telling him your genuine feelings for him." Katherine bit her lip knowing that Hannah may doubt her and not even do it but it was better to put it out in the open then bottle up those feelings before it was too late.
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Post by Hannah van de Berg on Sept 9, 2020 22:18:15 GMT
After her ramble about Geoff there was a silence. Was this some kind of test and had she failed? Finally there was a response from the other side.
"To see if your feelings for Geoff were genuine and I can tell they are." Hannah frowned a little as she heard her friends words. " How can you tell?" She asked softly. How could she be so sure? How could she tell she was not just projecting her own feelings on to geoff.
She looked up again as katherine started to explain a bit more. "You got to tell him how you feel because if you don't and something happens to either you or him..you don't want to feel any guilt for not telling him your genuine feelings for him." Hannah looked at the ground. So basically she was telling her that she should not be walking away from things. Hannah tried to hold her vest closer to her trying her best to feel a bit more safe. "Katherine, Im not sure if I can bring myself to do that.. I'm such a coward. " She said softly. What if she would make a fool of herself. Atleast katherine had told Dorian how she felt. That was katherine, brave and bold. She admired those qualities about her friend since she herself was not like that at all.
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Post by Katherine Sallow on Sept 9, 2020 23:01:23 GMT
"Katherine, Im not sure if I can bring myself to do that.. I'm such a coward. " Katherine rolled her eyes, trying not to get mad. "What and you think I just woke up and was confident to say how I felt about Dorian? I didn't. I know you and I are very different with how we approach things but for fuck sake Hannah. You can do it. You're just scared Geoff won't like you back and you think if you don't tell him how you feel, everything will be fine but news flash it won't be. What happens if Geoff died? Would you be fine that you didn't tell him your true feelings? Cause I know I wouldn't be if I died in the event and I never told Dorian how I truly felt..." She sighed. "I find it's better to tell everyone how you feel because if you don't then...not to say anything at all."
Katherine slowly stood up "I didn't meant to snap at you Hannah but I know that you are not a coward. You're just afraid of how Geoff will respond and I get that. Just tell him how you feel about him and you never know what he might say. Stop doubting yourself and the answers you may get."
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Post by Hannah van de Berg on Sept 10, 2020 0:02:48 GMT
It came a bit sudden to the brunette when she heard her best friend snap at her. She would lie if she said she didnt jump hearing her friends stern voice.
She blinked a few times as she listened closely to her friend. Just hearing katherine basically say to either speak up and stop being scared or keep her mouth shut all together hit differently. It was as if she was back home arguing with her mother.
'Don't you think you are being immature. You and your brother have had some fights but thats normal.'
"You think that if you wont tell anything you will be fine"
'After your father left us I have done everything for you. Do you think that was easy? You have gotten a whole new family. It should make you feel grateful'
"News flash. It won't"
'He is not as bad as you make him seem. How do you think Tim feels when you always give him the side eye."
"Would you be fine if you didn't tell him your true feelings?"
'How do you think your father-- fine stepfather, feels when he has to blame his son all the time. Like come on. You are both adults now. What could he have possibly done to make things so bad for you. He has not been as agressive as he used to be.'
"I find it important to tell how you feel or to.. not say anything at all. "
'Perhaps it is time that you grew up'
Silence. Hannah did not know what to say. Without fully realizing she was crying. She had not expected katherine to tell her this. To get irritated by her fear. She was right. She absolutely was. Hannah was afraid of confrontation. She was afraid that if she were to make a fool out of herself she would lose the small amount of selfrespect she had left. " I did not mean to snap at you" Hannah shook her head wiping her tears away with her sleeve. "No... no youre absolutely right" she spoke in a small voice. She heard katherine stand up. Was she tired..? "Im .. sorry for all that.." hannah mumbled as she was not moving still. She would shut up about it. She hoped she would be able to work up the courage. Only time would tell.
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Post by Katherine Sallow on Sept 10, 2020 23:18:47 GMT
Katherine was only greeted with deafening silence which she never liked before she heard "No... no youre absolutely right" She didn't know how to feel, she just snapped at a long time friend over something so small. Katherine sighed "I think it's best we try and get some rest. If we are gassed I don't get to hear from you, it was lovely to speak and hear your voice once more. Stay strong and alive for me ok?" Katherine said wiping away some tears, before slowly walking to the bed and slowly closing her eyes once more, hoping that she and Hannah would be able to talk more, tomorrow.
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