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Post by Mathias Berg on May 14, 2020 22:18:05 GMT
Getting a daily conversation started with Maya wasn’t always easy. Mathias also wanted to respect Greg’s peace, as they shared a room and surely Maya wanted to do the same with Aoi. His sense of time was lost, as there were no clocks and it was pretty impossible to figure out from the windows whether it was day or night. For this reason, it was also not possible to deduce whether someone was sleeping in another room or not. Mathias didn’t even know how many days had passed and how long he had been missing. He was sure Emerald had certainly already called the police, hired a private detective or two, and done her best for him. He missed his sister tremendously and was not afraid to admit it. Mathias feared he would never see her again.
He also feared he would never see Maya again. He was already grateful for these little moments that were given to them. Mathias knocked quietly against the wall, "Maya? Are you there?".
"What do you think... Will we ever get out of here?" Mathias asked seriously. He had not raised the subject so seriously before. Of course, the situation had never eased, but at the moment Mathias was very depressed about the whole thing. He was really afraid he would never see any of his loved ones again.
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Post by Maya Dawson on May 14, 2020 22:45:41 GMT
As always when she got to hear his voice lately, her heart was racing. Was this the time to speak up? Would fate now decide about her future love life? All excitement got caught short though as they started off with a serious topic. "I dont know. But I refuse to give up hope. I am certain our sisters are searching for us and either they will find us or one day we might get out ourselves. The only question is how ..." Sighing, she looked around the room. Her clothes were spread all around the room to dry after she washed them. Aoi, even though her ankle appeared to have healed by now, was still resting according to Mayas orders. She herself however was sitting on the floor, a blanket around her shoulders and a pillow in front of her to hug. As every waking moment now, she wished Mathias could be with them. Even though they still got to fight every now and then, dire circumstances or not, she felt safe with him. While David might have offered her physical strength, most times she had to protect him like a cup. Aoi was almost the opposite. She wasnt the strongest or bravest but her words and kindness had been a big reason Maya hasnt gone mad yet.
Mathias however felt like the whole packet. As she remembered how they sticked together and teamed up when they first woke up after their capture, she knew she could trust him blindly and he was both willing and capable to defend he. Furthermore though his voice alone eased her mind and calmed her even in her most raging or depressing moments. In addition with his choice of words he even managed to bring light into her darkness and keep her from freezing with the warmth of his very existence. "Dont give up Mat. We will get out of here and I promise you I will do anything to keep you safe and sound if possible. You are too precious for me to get lost."
Hugging the pillow closer, once again she thought about confessing. Who knew how much time they had let before new changes occured? Thinking of which however reminded her of something. "I need to tell you something. Some time ago I woke up to an offer. I was asked to write a love letter without any names in return for medical treatment for Aois ankle. It seems like I pleased whoever made the request with my letter as indeed we got the support. Maybe we already have unknown allies?"
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Post by Mathias Berg on May 16, 2020 0:24:35 GMT
"I dont know. But I refuse to give up hope. I am certain our sisters are searching for us and either they will find us or one day we might get out ourselves. The only question is how ..." Maya answered her question. He continued to be much more positive at all times, unlike Mathias. Mathias was more realistic, but in his own affairs he often turned to pessimistic thoughts. However, Mathias was warmed by the idea of their siblings trying their best. Maisie and Emerald would be a real power team. "We should see more often with the whole gang. We would be like a small family," Mathias suggested. Maya and Mathias would be like parents to their younger siblings. Well, I guess Maya still is for Maisie..."Dont give up the Mat. We will get out of here and I will promise you. I will do anything to keep you safe and sound if possible. You are too precious for me to get lost." Maya swore to him. Mathias irritated himself. He should say such words to Maya, and not the other way around. He should be her guardian angel, not such a cowardly snob.
"When you say it, it shows me in a bad light. But you and Emerald are the reason why I am ready to try and continue being in this hell," Mathias cursed. If Maya or Emerald weren’t in his life, Mathias would probably have already given up on looking for constant clues with Greg. He was tired of being on his toes all the time.
"I need to tell you something ..." she began. The shivers went through Mathias' body. What she was revealing, what she was about to tell? Would that be a good thing or a bad thing? Mathias should tell her things, a lot of things.
"Some time ago I woke up to an offer. I was asked to write a love letter without any names in return for medical treatment for Aois ankle. It seems like I pleased Whoever made the request with my letter as indeed we got the support. Maybe we already have unknown allies?”
Oh ... I guess I expected too much.
It was weird to hear that something good had happened once. Why would a kidnapper help them? Did they try to make them victims of Stockholm Syndrome. What was the motive for the whole kidnapping, what was the motive of the kidnapper. Was they meant to hurt them or not?
"Oh, that's surprising. I am of course happy for Aoi. But the love letter ... Maybe the kidnapper has a crush on you and they're reading your letter every night," Mathias joked, "I don't really find any a reason why they would want you to write a love letter without names."
Oh I wish she would write me a one...
"I would be very miserable to write a love letter. I'm not very good at expressing myself by writing. But apparently you were good. Do you often write love letters then?" he asked a little playfully.
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Post by Maya Dawson on May 16, 2020 8:18:23 GMT
Maya got to blush very heavily as Mathias sparked the idea of them being a small family. Even though he had only meant it alongside with their siblings in a cute friendly way, her thoughts and hopes immediately went straight to having children of her own with him. The more the merrier even! She could shower them with love and brag about the hilarious story about how she met their father and how they fell in love against all reason and odds. Every night she would sing them lullabies and tug them tight into their bed before falling asleep in Mathias arms herself. Truly she wished these dreams to become real one day. Especially given that in order to have children, she would have to get intimate with him first which excited her even more. Squealing about her naughty imagination, she burried her face into the pillow until she was able to calm down and proceed with their conversation again.
„I´m so sorry Mat. I didn´t mean to put you into a bad light. You are one of the strongest people I know and I know if someone makes it out of here, it will be you. I believe in you and trust you as much as my life with. So I beg of you, don´t think I mean ill when I want to protect you. It only means how much I care for you and that I know of how much you are capable of. Even so much more than me.“ Every word she had said, she meant. In her opinion, Mathias was one of the most amazing people she ever had the pleasure to meet. He was kind, skilled, smart and was one of the good people. Indeed if she wouldn´t believe in him that much, she wouldn´t have trusted him even literally blindly time and time again. If he told her to jump from a bridge, she would do so willingly as she knew he would never intend to hurt her even during their most ugliest fights. While she had often lashed out to hide her true feelings, he never had snapped back at her as bad as she did to him. On the other hand, it only reminded her what poor fit she might be for him and that it surely would only mean he saw her at most at that annoying family member you hold dear but dont want to spend all of your free time with or even your whole life. „That´s right, Emerald would be heartbroken if anything was to happen to you, as would I and all your other friends. Mathias I have no idea if you aware of it or not but there are so many people that love you and who are worth fighting for and would do the same for you. At least I know I would.“
As they eventually got to talk about the odd letter and what it could mean, Maya wanted to laugh at his jokes but she couldn´t. She only could imagine David in the sense of being one to crush on her. However he wasn´t the type to force things onto people, especially such odd things like a love letter. Still it weighed on her how she had to turn him down. „I am sure you would do great! You are already such an incredibly good and charming talker. All you would have to do is to write down your words. Either way people already fall for you all over. I know it cuz I saw it over and over again. A few even tried to ask your number from me!“ Trying to joke away her jealousy herself, the pain once again returned. Every time they were out in public, people were staring at Mathias and often enough they even tried to take his attention away from her or even go as far as ask him out directly. While she could understand peoples actions as he WAS indeed quite the catch and they barely came off as a couple for the most parts, still she wanted to have him all for herself. In her heart it was already decided that he was hers, and hers only and that she would do everything to make him happy without question. „Maybe. Normally I absolutely suck with words. I assume this one time I was successfull since I had someone on my mind when writing it so I basically put a piece of my heart into it. I have to say though it was both easy and hard. Writing things down or even telling people your feelings for another can be so easy. But opening up to the one you actually love … that´s incredibly hard. I wouldn´t even know where to begin with. There is just so much to say but at the same time fear of rejection and ruining an already good things always reigns over the need to confess.“ Letting out a long sigh, suddenly she felt tears running down her face. Maybe it was now or never?
Taking a long breathe in and out, she placed a hand on the wall where she thought Mathias might be right behind at. So much time has already been wasted. Hours, days, weeks and even months beforehand where she should have just told him about her feelings were all already wasted. If she would have opened up earlier, maybe they would already be a happy couple or at least she already was able to get over him bit by bit. Maybe David would have had a chance then or a whole different person. Now however it was almost unbearable to hold her confession any longer but yet she just felt unable to speak up still. Feeling her heart race, she tried to at least stutter out hints at her feelings for him. „Do you … have you ever been in a similar situation or do you have even now someone in your heart? You know, as a lover or even soulmate you want to spend your life with. If you … I mean if this makes you uncomfortable we can talk about something else. But I … well I do. And it would really help me to know what you think and feel. Maybe then I can finally get rid of my fear and tell him what I truly feel.“ Please don´t be in love with someone else. Please don´t tell me off. Please don´t let me go. I don´t know if I could survive knowing no matter what would happen next, you wouldn´t be in my life anymore because I fucked up. Please at the very least don´t hate me. I love you so much Mathias.
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Post by Mathias Berg on May 16, 2020 20:49:13 GMT
Maya made him sound like the best and most amazing person in the world on the entire planet. Mathias tried to think of reasons why she did it. Maya had praised him from head to toe. Of course she did it every now and then, but especially these last couple of days had been full of praises. It was as if she was afraid that time would run out of the world and she had to shout all the things she had inside her. The constant praise scared Mathias. Did Maya know that their time would run out soon or was she just afraid of it? Could you please go crazy at me again for a change? So I would be sure everything would be fine.Mathias, of course, didn’t enjoy their fights, when everything started to get ugly. But it was part of their relationship and part of them. The quarrels strengthened them and they always learned something new from each other. He used to had a similar relationship with a woman called Wilhelmina, several years ago. There was more fighting than rosy moments in their relationship, but even the most magical moments felt special, almost making him forget about all the bad moments. To protect their careers and image, they kept their relationship as a secret from a larger audience. The mystery between them brought a small spark to the relationship, but Mathias was sometimes annoyed by not being able to love her completely in public. They knew their relationship had been completely unordinary, so they decided to set a goal: if their relationship lasted for another year, they would get engaged and live their lives happily ever after. Unfortunately, after six months since their goal set: Wilhelmina appeared in front of Mathias with a new man and left him heartbroken.
In certain respects, that old relationship reminded him of, him, and Maya. Maya was very temperamental, but the quarrels had failed to break their friendship apart. On the other hand, the relationship between them was very different from the one he had with his ex. Maya knew how to be very gentle, she didn’t try to hide him. She always seemed to be so proud of him. Maya’s recent praise confirmed that. As if she wanted to introduce Mathias to the whole world, to introduce him as a wonderful person that Maya was proud of. If they would ever ended up together, Mathias wouldn’t want to fear that after a while, the relationship was no longer interesting to Maya. He would not want to experience the same thing again.
The remembrance of the old relationship made him hurt. He sat on the cold floor and covered his face with his hair. It was rare for him to keep his hair open. He did not want to return to those awful feelings. Loneliness, disappointment, self-loathing, unforgiveness, doubt, envy. He felt a piece in his throat, but held back tears. Even though the relationship with Wilhelmina had been long gone for a years, his mind couldn’t forget it. He didn't miss her, he didn't love her anymore. He just remembered all the dark days after the break-up. Whenever he remembered those days, he could sink into those negative emotions again - and again.
"Either way people already fall for you all over. I know it cuz I saw it over and over again. A few even tried to ask your number from me!" Maya reminded him.
Inside this handsome outer shell was just a snob wreck full of the most silly problems. Money and appearance don't save romantic relationships, nor friendships. Besides, he didn't want to share his number with anyone. His phone beeped often enough even without admirers.
Besides, I have you...
Maya eventually explained how she had gotten her love letter as authentic as possible. "I had someone on my mind when writing."
That's hell awesome, I wonder who could it be then?!
Mathias wanted it to be him. He slumbered to imagination that Maya had written letter when she thought of him. His stomach was full of butterflies, the thought of that possible situation confused him, in a good way. He awoke from his thoughts after hearing Maya's question, "Do you… have you ever been in a similar situation or do you even have someone in your heart?". Without thinking about it, Mathias quickly replied, "Yes." Mathias thought it would be any loved one, like a family member.
After a little silence, however, Maya continued her question, "... You know, as a lover or even a soulmate you want to spend your life with. If you… I mean if this makes you uncomfortable we can talk about something else. But I… well I do. "
Mathias answer was still same: yes he had someone special in mind, the kind of person he wanted for himself as a lifetime partner. "It would really help me to know what you think and feel. Maybe then I can finally get rid of my fear and tell him what I truly feel."
Why would my feelings help her to figure out hers, unless ...
So there was always a chance that Maya already knew that Mathias had fallen in love with her. Maybe she knew and now Maya would have fallen in love with someone ELSE and didn’t want to hurt Mathias by starting a relationship with them. Maybe she felt pity. She wouldn’t want to break Mathias like he had been broken before by Wilhelmina. Oh Maya, why are you such an emotional and gentle person. Or did she talk about Mathias, meaning that SHE was in love with HIM. His heart started beating fast and he was shaking a little bit.
"Yeah ... Yes, I've had someone special in my mind for a long time," Mathias started, while trying to focus on producing the speech. He didn't want a little panic to cause him to stutter. "She's a real angel, keeping my feet on the ground. It feels like I'm living some movie with her. I want her to be mine."
I want you to be mine. I need you to need me.
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Post by Maya Dawson on May 16, 2020 23:10:24 GMT
When Mathias answered her questions with a simple „yes“, Maya already had a feeling where it would lead to but hearing him confirm that he was indeed in love with someone shattered her heart into pieces. How could she have been so blind? She had never heard him mentioning anything about a crush or even a lover. Was he even already dating her? Why didn´t he tell her any of this beforehand or freely to begin with? Did he not trust her after all? Did he have a feeling about her own feeling for him and just didn´t want to break her heart like that? But then why would he praise that woman so openly now?
The more he went on talking about the one he loved, the harder it was for Maya to listen and especially to hold back her tears. All she could feel was pain and sadness that was taking away her breath when, as a true friend, she should be happy that at last Mathias fell in love again with someone so amazing according to his description. As she heard him praise how his woman was able to ground him, there had been a spark of hope glimmering in her heart. Maybe, just maybe he could be in love with HER after all. The moment he went on describing his love basically as an angel that came directly out of a movie, she was certain there was no way he could speak of her. She was far from being an angel. Yes, she might have been a guardian angel to a few people due to her job, but her personality was rather the one of a demon or even a devil according to her. What made her crack completely however was as he was so open with wanting to make the unknown woman his. Pulling away from the wall, she broke down into tears and had to cover her mouth in order to keep her sobbing away from his ears. She tried so hard to pull herself together before he would get suspicious or even think bad of her. However whenever she was about to speak up, all that left her was silence as her heart was aching in agony. After all their ups and downs, their memories, their odd yet hilarious story, why did she have to suffer so much? It had taken her so long to open herself up even only at the thought about a romance for herself after she had been occupied with keeping her sister and herself in a safe position in life. To actually fall in love, it had been even longer and now it was supposed to be all for nothing but pain and sadness? No. She couldn´t let this be the end of it.
At last she found the courage to push through her own hell and open up about what had been weighing on her for way too long now. „Thank you for your honesty. It appears indeed it was just what I needed since after all this time, I am finally able to confess. Therefore, I am sorry if I offend you or make you feel uncomfortable with what I tell you next. But I need to open up to you at last in case anything happens to either of us. I wanted to tell you for so many weeks, no months now already but I was always too afraid. In a way, I believe it´s even funny how weak I am for you ...“ Pausing for a moment, she took a deep breath. There was no going back anymore.
"I love you Mathias Berg, with my whole heart and every inch of my body. I want you to take my hand and take me into your arms so badly, To hold me tight and tell me all is going to be fine. I want to kiss you, to feel the warmth of you all over my body. I want to be yours truly, to be able to call you mine only and one day walk down the aisle for you. I want to be intimate with you, to feel you inside me and have your children, a whole bunch of them even." While it was a relief for her in the end, at the same time her tears started streaming down her face even more and she couldn´t hold back her sobbing either. It was just too painfull knowing that there was no future for them even if they got out safe and sound. Even though out of all people she had met her life, her heart had chosen him to belong to, he didn´t feel the same and probably never would no matter what she said or did.
"I know another woman holds your heart and you don't return my love, or at least not in that way, and that´s okay. I always had a feeling you wouldn´t be able to return my feelings so I won't bring it up again and we can still be friends after all. I mean, I know how different we are and how I am not at all what you would fall for to begin with but I hoped maybe with time ... I´m sorry. I just ... if I die, I wanted you to know that you are truly loved. Not only as a friend, a son, a brother or a college nor for your good looks, skills or money only, but as a man. Wholeheartly with all you flaws and strengths. With all demons of your past and all hopes and dreams for a future. So even though I know I will never be me that you need or even want to be at your side, I want you to be happy. You made me so happy and cared for and you deserve so much more in life. I want you to get all the praise, attention, care and love you truly deserve for being such a wonderfull person. I promise you, I will do everything in my power to keep you save and sound. Even if I have to give my own life, I would willingly do so without any hesitance or conditions if it means you get to live. You mean the world to me Mathias and there is nothing you can do that would ever change that."
Finally she had poured her heart out. All the feelings she had ignored for so long and had struggled to put into her words, have all been said at last. While it did make her feel happy to have been able to tell him the whole truth about her feelings, the agony of her heartbreak clouded all of her senses. Now that everything was said, she felt numb. She wanted to run away to save them both from having to confirm her assumptions about only getting rejected or even worse, being dumped as friend too. But she just couldn´t move yet. As if frozen in time, all she could do was stare into the room like a soulless puppet. Was that how David had felt when she turned him down? Then again he was able to distract himself fairly quickly and who knows, might even already be over it. Had he even truly loved her to begin with? Or was she only a crybaby that dramatized her own rejection way more than needed? Maybe in the end she was just an annoying child after all and not that strong superwoman she always pretended to be. The more her own thoughts dawned on her, the more obvious it was to her, how stupid and pointless even only the hope of Mathias ever being able to see her as his soulmate was. It had been already a miracle he wanted to stay in contact and even become friends with such an odd and plain person as her when there were so many incredible people out there. With time, maybe she would be able to get over him. For now though all she was able to do is lie down on the cold floor and cover her head with the pillow. It all was just too much for her.
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Post by Mathias Berg on May 17, 2020 20:27:55 GMT
Mathias waited nervously for Maya's reaction. Silence echoed between the walls. Embarrassing silence, annoying silence. Mathias seemed to be waiting for his doom. What was Maya really thinking, what was she really doing? Mathias wanted to walk through that stupid wall, take Maya by the hand, hug her tightly, and kiss her cheeks. He wanted a happy ending for them — a shared happy ending.
"Thank you for your honesty."
It felt like his heart had stopped hearing her speak again. Maya explained that his answer cleared her head. She apologized if this whole situation was confusing or distressing him.
Oh dear, that's what this unfortunately is.
Maya clearly had something important to say, something she had wanted to say for a long time and now she was ready to say it out loud even if she was scared. Mathias was scared too. Maya made this sound exactly what Mathias was afraid of. She would have found her Chosen One, and she knew about Mathias' feelings and now she would break his heart. Mathias prepared himself to hear his fate. He was better able to take on unpleasant things if he had already gone through the situation in his head. After the Maya's confession, he could only joke that he was happy for her and pretend that he was not in love with her. And they could be friends even after this, even if seeing Maya with another would be an eternally lasting thorn in his heart. Mathias sighed. He was ready to hear his judgement. Mathias had previously sat his back against the wall, but now he turned to look at the wall. He put his forehead against the wall. It felt cold, but it was a nice feeling.
"I love you Mathias Berg,"
Tears started to fall down. Did he hear right? Did the love of his life just say she loves him? He wanted to run through that wall now, even though he knew it was impossible. He wanted to jump, laugh and scream with joy. And so he did - inside his head. In reality, he was just sitting on the cold floor crying like a little kid.
"I know another woman holds your heart and you don't return my love, or at least not in that way, and that's okay."
Stop it.
"So even though I know I will never be me that you need or even want to be at your side, I want you to be happy."
I need you.
"I want you to get all the praise, attention, care and love you truly deserve for being such a wonderfull person."
I don't want that. I want you.
"You mean the world to me Mathias and there is nothing you can do that would ever change that."
You are my world.
"STOP IT!" he said loudly and hit the wall with his fist. "Don't talk about yourself so lowly, it's one the most horrible thing you can tell right now." anyone could have heard from his voice that he was really emotional right now. He still tried to cover up his tears. "You are the angel I was talking about. You have lifted me from dark pit towards the light. You have kept my feet on the ground, you have reminded me that there must be something else in my life other than work."
"With you, I feel like I'm the main character of a movie, where he fell in love with the impossible, and that impossible is you, Maya."
"I just want you to be mine, please be mine - just mine," Mathias asked. Of course Maya's monologue left no other choices to believe in, but he still wanted to hear it from her. He wanted to hear that Maya would be his.
"Maya, dear ..." he sighed, "I love you so much.".
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Post by Maya Dawson on May 17, 2020 21:35:20 GMT
„STOP IT!“ Just when she thought she couldn´t feel worse, Maya heard Mathias yell at the top of his loungs, accompanied by a loud bang against the wall. Even through the cover of her pillow she had been able to hear it and probably not only her. She was fairly certain both Aoi and Greg might have heard his outburst as well. Maybe even more people given how thin the walls were in comparism to the ones they were used to.
„It´s the most horrible thing you could say right now.“ There it was again, the pain and agony of rejection but only worse. Had her words been so offensive? She knew the timing probably hadn´t been the best, especially given he had confessed he was in love with someone just beforehand. Did he hate her now for bombarding him with her speech about her undying love for him? Could it get any worse now?
Pressing the pillow stronger against her head, she tried so hard to ignore him. However when she was able to hear mumbling through her shell still, there was another feeling she couldn´t shake. Something told her to give up her cover and hear him out at last. After all he had listened to her as well. Still it took her quite some time, making her miss assumingly a few sentences of his speech. Once she opened both her ears and heart to truly hear him however, everything changed instantly.
Mathias was talking as emotional as never before as far as she could remember but most importantly he was talking with such great passion about HER! At first, she just couldn´t believe it. Had she lost her mind? Did she have a stroke? Maybe it was just all a dream after all. Just to be sure, she pinched her skin. Nope, that wasn´t an illusion.
„I want you to be mine, please be mine - just mine.“ As he said those words, for once Maya was left speechless in a good way. All this time of doubt and struggle, suddenly it had been all worth it just to hear these words. Just like that it felt as all pain had been lifted from her and been replaced with pure love, joy and happiness. Even in her wildest dreams she could have never imagined how incredibly it felt hearing those words.
What gave her the absolute final blow though was the very last sentence. He loved her! Mathias actually was in love with her as much as she was with him! No talking around it, no downplaying either of their feelings, just the famous three words she had longed to have him say to her for so long.
„YES! I am yours and yours only. It is you I belong to with my whole heart and nobody else. Mathias I … you have no idea how happy you just made me. I love you so much. More than I thought ever possible with anyone.“ For the first time since way too long, Maya was crying tears of joy and smiled as brightly as if for the first time she had been able to feel the warmth of the sun on her skin after a whole life of isolation in a dark winter. Indeed it felt as if they were in a movie and she couldn´t help but laugh at the fact she had found herself in her very own romcom, aside the horror of their kidnapping of course.
Almost as she as a teenager, she placed her hand against the wall once again, imagining Mathias doing the same on the other side as they both longed to be in each others arms to embrace their love. „Can you … can you say it again? Please my love.“
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Post by Mathias Berg on May 22, 2020 8:36:24 GMT
Mathias rejoiced in how they had been able to share their feelings. And best of all, they both feel the same way, who knows how long they had felt so about each other. Mathias himself didn't know what would have been such an act or the day he realized it himself. But right now he was head over They had been very close to each other, so jumping from friends to lovers didn't feel funny.
Finally, he'd be allowed to kiss her, and it wouldn't be weird or awkward. He wanted to get back into his own life as soon as possible so he could finally be together with Maya as lovers.
She said it out loud again that she loved him. Maya asked him to do the same. He laughed a little bit at her, not to offend her but she was so cute with her request. "I can say it thousand times if that's what you need. Maya Dawson, I love you more than anything."
"You have no idea how relieved I feel. I don't have to cover up feelings or thoughts of you anymore." he smiled.
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Post by Maya Dawson on May 22, 2020 13:20:17 GMT
Even when she heard it a second time, it still felt so beautiful and surreal as if she was living her wildest and best dream ever. Mathias was hers and Mayas was his and there was nothing that would change that for as long as they could do anything to protect their young love. Yet it did make her wonder how things would go from here. Were they already an official couple so she could claim him as her partner and boyfriend? Or were they just on the status of casual dating now? She had no idea but whatever what was ahead of them, she would be happy as long as her love was at her side.
"If you say it like that, I do have to admit I am curious what your hidden thoughts are. It´s a bit embarrassing but I believe you already know about mine going from very cute and innocent to very naughty." Chuckling a bit at her the reminder of her own wild imaginations, she wondered how much she would ever tell him. Sharing her fantasies of them kissing, falling asleep next to each other or him just holding her for hours and hours in his strong arms was one thing. Her horny thoughts of all the ways and places she wanted to have sex with him however was a whole new level. Not to mention the extend of naming a certain secret night companion after him.
Trying to get the longing for his body out of her head before she went all lusting for him, she tried to retreat to the burning question from earlier. What would they offically declared as? "As you know, I am not really that experienced with relationships and all that for myself. So ... what are we now? Lovers? Boyfriend and girlfriend? Something else entirely? I just know I want to be with you in every way as man and woman. I want to declare to everyone who would listen, how much I love you and that you are mine and mine only."
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Post by Mathias Berg on May 22, 2020 16:17:13 GMT
For couples, it wasn't strange to share sexual thoughts about each other. They were like that now, at least in Mathias' opinion, but still it was hard to talk about more sexual thoughts of his. "Hey, with woman like you it's not hard to have thoughts like that," Mathias said. "Who wouldn't want to enjoy the benefits of their own office? If you know what I mean... "
It was hard to talk about his desire especially at the beginning. Maybe after a few glasses of wine, things could change. Of course, not all his thoughts were like that. He was also dreaming of walking hand-to-hand, falling asleep next to her while holding her and didn't have to be shy to ask her to stay the night when they couldn't make it home by themselves. Pretty normal things for dating couple.
"So... what are we now? Lovers? Boyfriend and girlfriend? Something else entirely?" Maya wanted to make sure. "If it's up to me, then we are like dating couple, like boyfriend and girlfriend." Mathias answered. "I want to introduce you as my girlfriend to everyone, not just as a random date."
"Well, Emerald will be easy one. She probably already liked the idea of us dating, so now she's going to get another chance to resound, that she was right. You know she always liked you from the very start." For once, he should make his sister happy and not be a party pooper. "What would Maisie think? I hope she likes me enough to see me a little more often."
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Post by Maya Dawson on May 22, 2020 19:52:49 GMT
Hearing his mentioning of his own office as a place to enjoy each others ... company, Maya couldn´t help but giggle a bit about it. Not that it was an odd place to imagine them to have "fun" at but rather the fact she herself had thought about it just about the very same moment. The things they could do, the places they could do it there ... . "I certainly hope I do at the very least." Just the thought about it with all the possibilities made her blush very hard. It sure would be a time to remember and a fun throwback at their second meeting when they made peace with each other. It might have even sealed their fate with each other by being so open to another even only as strangers. 10/10, definitely would do it all over again even if it meant to get locked away. As long as they would end up together, a lot if not all seemed worth it for Maya. She was just too happy at that very moment.
"Mathias!" She exclaimed, almost crying all over again. "You just keep making me so incredibly happy. It makes me regret even I didn´t open up earlier. I can´t wait to introduce you as mine either, especially to our families and all our friends." Speaking of their siblings, it appeared they had the same thought once again. It warmed her heart to hear it also from him how supporting Emerald has been on them. Even though she didn´t knew her as much yet, she really liked the kind gem and it made her only happier to think of her as family now too. Her own sister would be similar though probably a bit more excessive similar to Maya. "Oh Maisie would basically would say something like "Finally, I already feared you two would never get together!". She always had a feeling and was quick to figure things out when my feelings for you got deeper. It wouldn´t surprise me if she basically gives you her blessing to move in together if not straight up marry. The things she would do to have a bit more freedom or rather the flat all to herself."
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Post by Mathias Berg on May 23, 2020 11:28:43 GMT
Mathias was a little surprised to hear how Maisie probably would take their relationship. Both of their sisters had been sure of their feelings.
"Well I guess it's hard to hide such feelings from people who are close to you, especially from family members." Mathias said and blushed when he heard that Maisie might give them her blessing to move in together and getting married. Moving in together sounded like a realistic idea to him. Mathias would do it as soon as possible. Unlike Maisie, Emerald had already bought her own apartment with the money she earned from her job.
"There's plenty of room in my apartment for you, too. Just a thought." Mathias suggested but he didn't want to put pressure on Maya. They just confessed their feelings, and here he is making suggestions about moving in together.
"But we don't have to rush, and we can buy our own house or apartment later." he wanted to calm himself and Maya if she was surprised by Mathias' suggestion. Maybe the older you got, the faster you began to accept and move on quicker to the larger turning points of life.
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Post by Maya Dawson on May 23, 2020 12:16:16 GMT
Maya was delighted at the offer of sharing a home together with Mathias. Was it too early and fast to make such huge steps in such a short amount of time? Fairly surely. Was it matching their personalities and relationship? Absolutely. Just as she had mentioned, her younger sister sure would be happy to have some more freedom for herself without Maya reigning their flat and telling her what to do and ground her if she broke rules. On the other hand though she was sure Maisie would sooner or later come to miss the cooking and the chores Maya had taken care of. Then again at least for Maya it was clear that they would have a lot of family meet ups together so they could all grew closer as a family.
Just the imagination of living with Mathias was enough for her to agree right away. "Let´s do it then! I would love to be able to share a home with you, to welcome you to with a homemade meal after a long day and be able to fall asleep next to you. I know what in life and just as well I know that YOU are my future. So I welcome absolutely every next step as long as you are comfortable with it as well." If things were going according to her, they could have as well married on the spot and start a family right after. Yet she knew even though they were moving fast now, after they had taken so long to confess their feelings already, some things still needed time. She was sure about their relationship to last for as long as their health would let them, so in the end she was certain everything they wanted would be happening at some point eventually. For now she was already overjoyed that they appeared to share the most important desire, to be with each other and enjoy their love and the happiness of the moment.
As he continued with the suggestion of buying a shared home later on, she only felt herself proven right about their relationship once again. "That would be lovely! Is it bad I am actually looking forward to it already? You know, to make such important decisions together and plan everything from the very start to the end as a couple?"
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Post by Mathias Berg on May 23, 2020 22:56:28 GMT
It was wonderful that Maya was so excited about his suggestion. His own apartment didn't exactly represent any style of interior design, only general modernism. Maybe together they could build a future home décor.
"Warm homemade food sounds like luxury to me. You know I'm not the best cook in the world. And to be honest, I'm very bad at sleeping alone. I just sleep better when someone sleeps next to me." Mathias already dreamed of shared meals. Ahh, no more take away food every day. Although take away was good as long as you knew great restaurants.
However, the harsh truth suddenly struck Mathias. They would need to get out of here first before any of these could happen. God knows how long they'd be held here. Would the kidnapper ever let them go? Would they be rescued from here or would they eventually die?
"Darling, we need to get out of here. Quickly."
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